Change Before You Have To


Last Thursday I was asked to write about what I would do if I won the Mega Millions jackpot.

Of course all of the defaults came into my mind like buy my parents whatever they want, put my god kids through college, buy a house, a nicer car and invest the rest in business ventures.

But it became so difficult for me to write those thoughts down because I wasn’t 100% sure if that would be true to how I need to address the question.

In its essence it is such a simple question until you really think about it.

Let’s say the jackpot is $300 million. After taxes you’d be left with about $162.1 million.

That’s still a lot of money to take care of responsibilities as well as get a few treats for yourself.

But have you ever thought about the other side of winning like excessive taxation, new “friends”, money mismanagement and trusting the wrong individuals with your finances?  Not to mention the multitude of family members you haven’t seen in eons that would call and ask you for a handout.

Then think of all the greedy mu’fuckas out there who would be plotting on sticking you up for that money.

In theory, winning the lottery sounds like a dream come true. But just as with anything else in life every action has a reaction.

For example; a fun evening of drinking with friends can turn into the hangover from hell the next morning. Failing to honor your commitments with certain people can diminish the amount of faith and trust they put in your word. Cause and effect intertwines with our daily lives and as I thought more and more about winning the Mega Millions I started to see all of the positive as well as the negative aspects. And once I did that I came up with this conclusion:

Fuck yes I want to win the Mega Millions!

Because I can deal with all the other shit but being broke pisses me off.

And I’m not the only one.

On many occasions my friends with kids always say to me ‘You’re so lucky you don’t have kids. You don’t have to worry about being broke’

I normally laugh because if I did have any kids I would have to ship them off to an orphanage in China because I can hardly afford to take care of myself let alone another person. I commend parents for their dedication but I want them to realize that we are all in the struggle together. These are some extremely broke times we’re living in and a paycheck is just allowance from Daddy (aka Your Job). You need to make that shit stretch for another two weeks and that’s the kind of struggle I would want to eliminate by winning millions of dollars.

Unfortunately, the likelihood of that happening is slim for many reasons. Mainly because black people never win but also because the odds of winning are roughly 1 in 175,223,510.00 (for Powerball) and the winner is usually an older person from the middle of Bubbafuck or someone who already has money that doesn’t even need it. And that five dollars I’m wasting towards a pipe dream would be better suited to go into my gas tank.

Hoping to win the lottery is like being Sleeping Beauty. Sure, it would be nice if some handsome stranger came along and kissed you to break the curse. Oh yeah, and he just so happens to be a Prince.

How utterly lucky for that bitch!

But for the rest of us, dreaming about something coming to save us from our reality will only leave us asleep and dreaming. Because nobody can really change our reality but us.

Many of us are unsatisfied with our lives. We’re at a crossroads between accepting where we are as how it’s going to be or searching for a new path to make things better.

The good news is that none of us has to stay where we are if we’re unhappy. Granted, if you answered that question with ‘Yes I do!’ then Congratulations. You’ve made your choice now live with it and keep it moving.

It is my belief that if you want to change something you can change it by being proactive and working towards that goal. Not by waiting for it to change because most times when you wait the change is negative and unwanted.

You must change before you have to.

Winning millions of dollars would be nice, don’t get me wrong. And if I ever did win the Mega Millions jackpot I’m recreating this scene at my job. But what I would rather do is take this time to reassess what is working, what isn’t working and what could work better to forward me in a life filled with happiness and satisfaction. And that’s worth more than any amount of money.



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  1 comment for “Change Before You Have To

  1. dat nigga
    December 27, 2013 at 12:46 pm

    Great story!!!! Im happy with my life….but gotdamit millions of dollar would be great

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